New year, new resolutions, right?? (yes, yes I know I was supposed to do this BEFORE January 1, but I have only just begun to think about anything but school).  However, the term “resolutions” just sounds like a whole lot of negative thinking to me.  Why make a list of all the “bad” things you do and pledge to “resolve” in the new year?  I mean there are definitely things I need to work on, but overall I am pretty happy with who I am.  So instead of coming up with a list of new years resolutions I am going to put into writing the main goal I hope to accomplish for myself this year

In 2018 I pledge to become the best version of myself in both body and mind.

The last year or two I have become so confident in me and the path I have chosen for myself.  Although most days I do feel happy with where I’m at, there are also plenty of days when I don’t feel that self confidence and pride.  It’s easy to sit here and write about all the times I have felt good, but it’s not easy to talk about the times I feel not so good.  There are so many days I feel like a beached whale, my face is filled with acne, I am bouncing with anxiety, and my brain is incredibly foggy.  My goal for 2018 is to prevent these days as best I can.

I’ve been thinking long and hard about how to put this goal into writing, and I still don’t know what to say.  It’s not hard to say I want to lose 10 pounds or eat more vegetables, but what I really want to do is experiment with new ways of eating, exercising, and mindfulness to become my best self.  In the next year I plan on reading through all kinds of different holistic practices and experimenting with my own body to figure out what makes me feel like my best self.

As I sit here I think, haven’t I been trying to do this for like my whole life??? In actuality yes I have, but I don’t think it has been such a conscious fight up until recently.  For many years I have been somewhat aware of what I was eating, drinking and doing to my body.  But when faced with the choice of binge drinking all night long or going to the gym I almost always chose to drink the night away.  When choosing between spending a afternoon in bed eating ice cream and watching Netflix or going to the gym I almost always chose Netflix.  I have never been so motivated to make my personal well being such a huge priority until now, and I think the fact that this life change is so real to me is going to make a huge impact on my results.  So really this isn’t a “new goal”, but it’s me finally taking action on a goal that has been only a thought for too long.

We only get one body and one life.  I am committed to living my best life.  So follow me as I document my adventure wandering through wellness.